Can Our “Motives” Delay God’s Blessings?

Don’t rush…read this.

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“Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” (Psalms‬ ‭37:4‬)


Sometimes, understanding God can be a bit difficult. Jesus promises us that whatever “we ask for in His name, He will do it” (John 14:14). However, He doesn’t always answer when we want Him to or exactly how we expect Him to. Does that mean God is lying? No. Sometimes some things we ask for just aren’t the will of God for our lives, that’s why when Jesus was praying to the Father, He said “not my will by Yours” (Luke 22:42). Even if it is God’s will for our lives, that doesn’t mean that it was His timing.


You see, when the Bible says that if we delight in God and He will give the desires of our heart, that didn’t make Him a genie. Many people try to use that…

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Aside

here we go…again. :-)

This blog is dedicated to God, our father in heaven. He looks down upon us and protects us. His grace is immeasurable and his mercy has no magnitude.

He gave us His only son, so that we may be forgiven by His blood. We thank Him for the cross, for that sacrifice He made, left an amazing place that no eye has seen and no ear has heard about. A place we cannot imagine so that He could come to earth to die for our sins. Meaning he ran to His earthly death so that we could be saved, so that we may have hope. He really means that He can die for us, and He did exactly that. If that’s not real love I do not know what is. He carried that cross to Calvary, fell three times and he still stood up every time  and moved on, bearing that heavy cross just for us. He did not have to but He did.  This just makes me wonder of how special we are to God in heaven, how much He treasures us but we do not see it.

I compare this to a relationship, you see this guy and you like him so much, you do all that you can to get his attention and he never ever notices you, how does that make you feel? Okay, for those girls who have given up on guys, which I will talk about too, let’s use an example of your mom. You do so much to show her you value and love her, but she ignores it all the time, says she’s busy working or watching something,. That rejection hurts, I can only imagine what God feels when we reject Him after sacrificing so much for us, even His own son. He gave us His best.

Jesus would have given up, said, I can’t do this and walked away, or be whisked away in heaven by the angels, but He did not. He looked into the eyes of the women who cried, felt the pain of the whips cutting through His skin and blood dripping on His forehead and He knew that it was worth it. All the pain, the entire struggle, and all that weight He carried  would save nations from eternal  fire. It would bring multitudes to the Father.

I always wish that I was born in those times, when there was no electricity. When all we did was talk bake laugh share memories and learn. Those times when being a believer was not such a –mouth wide open what are you talking about where were you born- kind of moment expressed when you said that you are born again and that you believe in God and His son Jesus Christ.

I chose to blog about God, life, love and how all these reflect on a girl’s life because I know I can relate most with someone somewhere who feels like there is no chance. John the Baptist said that there is nothing new under the sun right? So what I went through is no different from someone else somewhere.  I chose to blog about Christianity and the journey through my life, the bad and the good. I chose to blog about moments that I wished I was dead and moments I knew I deserved to be off the face of the earth. Sounds like depression huh..Yes, rock bottom moments of my life as a teen ager.

You know…life is a really interesting event. We think it’s long but it’s just a matter of time, a very short time. Do you know that there is a building  in the streets of Nairobi that has been there more than a hundred years. A tree that has grown thousands of years. This means, my ancestors were here and left it there. That shows you how short human life is. And we all should ensure that we use it to the maximum. We should live to live again.

Life should not be as meaningless. Today, I was in the mat  going home after a whole day of studying. Let me rewind, I woke up today and it was so cold and rainy. I decided to sleep off but I heard my mum call a cab telling the person on the other end that they should get her at 7.45am, that was about thirty minutes to. I thought, I should make it to school early and study, I was avoiding the rain because, you know us girls and the rain, the hair will get messed up, we want to look good ALL the time. So I jumped out of bed like I just had an electric shock and showered so fast and picked some jeans a t-shirt and a tuxedo coat, you know they do wonders for the outfit. So I picked some heels and before mum could go I said I’d go with her.

I am learning to live in the moment, I don’t know if it makes sense but, I have realized that I have fewer memories because I always think of stuff I have to take care of, something that happened a few years ago, what I have to do thirty minutes to come. I hope you get it now, I never live in the moment, I always think of the past or the future and when I think of the present I always think of how it will affect the future. Complex! So I decided that I would live in the present, because when I look at my past, it’s not written. Why, because  during that past I was thinking of the present which was the future at that time.

So I got to school, at about eight thirty, and since that time, I studied. I had an exam. I ate lunch alone, I hate eating alone, just because I had to study for the good grades I want. My classmates nowhere to be found because we were all studying for this big exam. I am always a last minute person. It’s not a good thing. I always try. It’s a habit to break out of. So when the exam time neared I was so tense and my classmates told me this topic will be tested and that topic will be tested and all this confused me because when I study, what I have read is what I know and when I let the slightest thought that I don’t know, my head jumbles up and I feel like I’m just blank.. After a whole day of study, I feel blank.. After eating lunch alone I feel blank? Really?

I recollected myself, asked myself why I let myself not believe In myself and ran to the library. I read all the short notes and In my head, I thought, but nobody mentioned this and nobody mentioned that and I had it but they never seemed to feel blank. So I regained part of my confidence and walked swiftly to class;

“ I hope you know there’s no exam”,

“what? No way..”, I smiled and brushed it off.

I walked towards class because; you know someone might pull your leg. I am a Thomas when it comes to business, serious business, because lawyers are taught, seeing is  believing. So I clarified and before I got to class everyone told me, there is no exam, it has been postponed.

Behold, a paradox. To be happy or not to be happy.

No exam but my whole day was spent in school.

I think of every scenario as applying to my spiritual life, and I thought,. If this was heaven even if I had the slightest idea that there was no heaven, would I prepare for it and be disappointed later or should I prepare for it and be happy when I find it there.

We live in a world that has faded away belief, religion especially Christianity. The story of Adam and Eve inspires me. It inspires me not to put blame on anyone. I put the blame on myself. I have made my beliefs fade away like that wind in Kalahari. Faith in God and in Jesus is just another question we choose  to ignore. Application forms asking about my religion, I do not hesitate to write down so boldly that I am a Christian. The actions however do not speak the same.

For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory. And I am amongst them. I choose to walk in this journey by repainting my faith with a bold colour just like Peter marangi. I choose to live my life as a Christian of faith. This is not a one day thing. It is a journey. We are not perfect, we are not a perfect square and NOBODY has the guide book to life. Only by faith and by the teachings Jesus left us here on this earth can we live according to His words and according to His will. Otherwise, the bible will not tell you what time to wake up tomorrow or what clothes to wear, it just guides you and it is for you to make a choice. It is for you to choose, either to be ready for that exam and not do it, or find the exam on your desk after not studying  because someone somewhere gave you an idea that there is no exam.

My life hasn’t been rosy and dreamy, I’m sure many of ours. But we still live right? I am the kind of girl who planned  her life by age, I knew what I wanted to do at sixteen, what I wanted to do at eighteen, at twenty two, at twenty one but it hasn’t been exactly as planned it out. I will talk about this journey, hoping that I get to someone in my shoes or someone who is not.

Like I say, live, Laugh, love.

Till next write, pray love and seek.

 

Broken 

I read this. I had to share. Please read. Good day.

Mind Conversations

When I was growing up I knew I was going to be successful. I loved school and my grades were in line with my dreams.I imagined having a family, a beautiful house, a nice car, gorgeous kids and taking family vacations, everything looked so real.I just couldn’t wait to grow up.

Last year, as the year was coming to an end, I almost lost my job and things didn’t get better after that, so I decided to quit my job and figure my life out. Everything wasn’t going according to plan. I finished school, got good grades in campus, got a job then another then another and now I was tired of looking. So I decided to start my business. It seemed like a great idea. Now all my childhood fantasies were on the way to becoming a reality. I had a few friends to back me up on the…

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It’s Time To Take Your Life Back From What Broke You

a step at a time

Thought Catalog

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Take your life back from your flaws. You are so much more than your mistakes, and the things you dislike about yourself. Tell me, who were you before you let your flaws define you? Before you zoned in on your shortcomings, your imperfections and your weaknesses? Who were you before you allowed such things to dictate your existence? Before you started saying no to living when it tapped on your shoulder because you were disappointed with your body, because you didn’t believe in yourself, because you constantly compared your value to what others portrayed around you? Who were you before you let your faults limit you, and what have you given up, what opportunities have you held like sand between your fingertips because you empowered your insecurities instead of empowering your confidence?

Take your life back from what broke you. The past is meant to etch lessons into…

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How To Ruin Your Life (Without Even Noticing That You Are)

loved this piece.its for today and the days to come

Thought Catalog

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Understand that life is not a straight line. Life is not a set timeline of milestones. It is okay if you don’t finish school, get married, find a job that supports you, have a family, make money, and live comfortably all by this age, or that age. It’s okay if you do, as long as you understand that if you’re not married by 25, or a Vice President by 30 — or even happy, for that matter — the world isn’t going to condemn you. You are allowed to backtrack. You are allowed to figure out what inspires you. You are allowed time, and I think we often forget that. We choose a program right out of high school because the proper thing to do is to go straight to University. We choose a job right out of University, even if we didn’t love our program, because we…

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TIME

Hi you..i hope your day is going okay. I hope you  are happy today and smiling.

I need to share something with you..about my feelings today, at this time.

I am in the dark, in my bed. I am listening to Emeli Sande’s Read all about it, a coincidence when i think about it now that im writing to you about my feelings.

Can i ask you something? Do you ever feel like you give so much to everyone, like you love everyone in your life that you value..so much that you would do anything for them?

Then…sometimes you feel like they do everything in their power to push you away? and you wonder why they are doing that because it hurts your feelings? And you wonder why they do somethings that you would never do to them.. Then, you start asking yourself if those people are your friends? Because the person you’re telling asks you, are you still talking about your friends? because they sound like total strangers..

Has it ever dawned on you that you should stop letting people in your life? and when you   do that,it feels so lonely but the loneliness feels better than the pain you get when you feel betrayed?

Do you deal with betrayal on a regular basis? How do you handle it? Do you stay or do you leave? Do you talk or do you keep all quiet and just move on..heart broken..your heart bleeding and nobody  understands?

Do you ever wonder why you cant find someone who wants to go bird watching on wednesday mornings? a person who wants to visit the museum and have icecream after? a person that calls you to ask you to check out the latest art gallery? a person that wants to go for dance classes because they cant do the club dances, they think, just like you that ballroom dancing takes a long time but its way more fun than popping or twerking or grinding? that person that pushes you to go jogging in the morning because its good for you and keeps you fit? a person that wants to go to the library and study for fun and because its so much fun? a person to create stuff with! a person that wants to take up some community service activities because it feels so good helping out! a person who wants to surprise our mothers with a random dinner cooked by us? a person to just look at something and laugh with? a person who wants to see the world and get into any academic competition just to go there because that’s a trip for free.shopping together and making a mockery out of yourselves? going for spa treatments together..?a person who wants to hunt down influential people to interview at dinners or luncheons so that we can have some of that wisdom to last a lifetime? a person that just wants to stare at the stars and wonder and wish and just talk? a person that shares your vision for what life can hold the limitless possibilities! should i go on? you get the drift..

do you ever?

Girls only.

Why you need to fail to have a great career

#FORME #FORYOU #GIRLSONLY

TED Blog

At TEDxUW 2011, economics professor Larry Smith gave a memorable talk titled, “Why you will fail to have a great career.” [ted_talkteaser id=1384]The hilarious talk takes aim at people and the incredible excuses they dream up for not pursuing their passions, from “It’s too hard” to “But I value human relationships more than my work.” His talk was a call for people to get out of their own way and at least try.

At this year’s event, entrepreneur Michael Litt gave his reaction to Smith’s talk, titled, “Why you have to fail to have a great career.” His idea: that failure provides the ultimate experience needed for success — learning to get up and dust yourself off after a fall. Watch above to hear Litt’s candid telling of a time he failed professionally, big time. Since being posting on December 23, this talk has been watched…

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